When I started 'head writing' my
guest post for Bonnee last week, I thought I was going to end up with something different than what she
asked for. It started shading from 'why I write' to 'why I write what I write',
but once I started
really writing the
post, I worked my way back to the original question. Sometimes things work out
the way they're supposed to. Still, the the proverbial pump had been primed,
and I was thinking a lot about
why I write what I write.
A long time ago, I
wrote a post about how ideas for me are
usually the result of not one instantaneous blast of inspiration, but of several
smaller 'mini-blasts' that kind of build on each other and make something
bigger. Some weeks back I was reading a query letter on AW's query letter hell
(the
'be brave' post came out of that one). Something in an exchange I had with
the author got filed away in my brain for later use. So did a couple of other
queries I've come across recently. Add in the thinking over the guest post for
Bonnee, and things were starting to happen in the back room. Finally, while
reading
Catching Fire this past
weekend, it all came together, and I had a new found understanding of the writer's
proverb (adage? Aphorism?),
Write the story you want to read.
It's a little embarrassing to admit, but when I first
started hearing this I often thought, "What the hell does that mean? I
don't know what I want to write." I'm usually pretty good at sifting
through all the advice thrown at writers. I've known from the get-go that
'start with action,' for example, doesn't mean car chases and explosions, that
'never use adverbs' really means 'use adverbs as needed,' and 'show don't tell'
should be followed by 'when appropriate.' Yet 'write the story you want to
read' kind of mystified me.
The problem, as I have now learned, is I was taking this
advice far too literally. The truth is I don't think there is any particular story
burning a hole in my head like cash in a gambler's pocket. I haven't been
walking around for years thinking, "Damn, if only someone would write
about an all-male burlesque show set on Saturn in 2145!" Nothing I've
written so far is the result of yearning for *this* story or *that* one.
Instead, I was fortunate enough to have a character or situation or scene kick
open the door from the back room and say, "Here I am!" and that's
been enough to start. The rest of the story comes along once I start writing. It
doesn't always end up coming out the way I thought it might, but it comes out,
and it's right—for me.
But I digress. The 'aha moment'—the moment when the stuff
from the back room kicked open the door and fused instantly with the stuff in
the front room—occurred while I was 30 pages or so into Catching Fire and found
myself at a fork in the road. In one direction was the story as written, though
I didn't know what that was just yet (I didn't read any flap copy, I just
grabbed the book). It turned out okay. I read the book in about a day, it kept
me turning pages, yes, and I will read Mockingjay just to see how this
finishes, but I wasn't thrilled. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't great, either. I
think most of my disappointment was because of what I saw down that other fork.
Briefest of spoilers here, and I will say, this caught me by
surprise in the book: Katniss and Peeta end up back in special edition Hunger
Games, sort of like the Survivor All-Stars. As I said, it worked out pretty
well as a book, but what I saw down that other fork was this: Katniss living in
District 12, having to deal with the consequences of her actions from the first
book (yes, true, going back in the games was a consequence of book 1, it was just a different consequence). Those consequences included things like dealing with her new-found fame
and fortune, coping with the memories of her experience in the Games, having to
deal with the way she is viewed by the people back home, which would likely be
a mix of reverence, envy, and, possibly, fear (imagine seeing your friend legally
kill several somebodies on live TV in brutal and clever ways, and then trying
to have a normal conversation with them. Freaky, huh?). I wanted something that
really dug into Katniss's character, that delved deep to examine the impact of
the first book's events on her life and relationships to the people and world
around her. I didn't get it, and I was disappointed, until I shifted my
expectations a bit.
I found myself thinking a bit about what I might have done,
the story I wanted to see, and that was when the notion of 'write the story you
want to read' really hit me. For me, for now, it's about stuff that goes on
sort of below the plot layer. It's about characters and why they do the things
they do. Plot is important, yes, but I like fiction that really focuses on
characters and how they grow and change (or don't) over the course of a book.
That's what I want to read. That's what I like to write. It's funny that I
never thought of it that way before.
Have a great weekend, all.